I
stayed, hoping to find what we lost
I
misplaced my sense of sanity waiting for you
I
gave you all you wanted, but it was never enough
You
pretended to be someone else for oh so long…
Now
I see a curious mask, not your face, when I gazed in your direction
Thought
sleep to be my only refuge, but every night you haunt my dreams
On
my way to your heart,
I
was stopped by a wall of silence
Then
slowly devoured by a chaotic spirit
Your
cruelty was not softened by tears...
To
how many others have you dangled that cube of sugar?
The
cling vines of betrayal climbing and choking
What
you left behind is worse than you stole
Waiting
on a sentence, for the words to make sense
You
choreograph the relationship so well
I
entered and exited at your beckon...
Every
day I gazed upon a stranger with a familiar face
The
emptiness in my life w/o you is near absolute
The
coldness of your touch burns thru to my aching bones
I
gave up everything to lose everything
I’m
standing in the rain to hide my tears
You
got good at playing “pretend”
Let
me relieve you of your disguise
You
changed the facts to fantasy
and
the fantasy to torment and chaos....
When
I held your hand,
did
I ruin your vanity?
When
I touched brushed back your hair,
was
I taunting vipers?
When
I kissed your lips,
was
it venom that I tasted?
When
I said I loved you,
did
it echo from you past?
Do
you think I was purified by pain?
I
was not...
I
was destroyed!
Are
you satisfied?
Was
I the final chapter?
© Oct 5, 2011 ~ DBC, Duke of the Arctic
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